Day 5

Saturday November 12

Saturday 9:36am

Day 5

The daily routine

Begins again;

Woken up at 6:45 by a nurse

To take thiamine, potassium

And multivitamin tablets

(To prevent refeeding syndrome-

Apparently I am still high risk)

And most importantly

My increased dose of clonazepam

To enable me to manage breakfast.

I get up then

Draw back the curtains

And pray.

At the moment

My prayer is mostly

'Lord, give me strength.

Please be my rock

My refuge

Help me through today'.

I make it to the dining room

Just after 7:30am

And the rest of the group

Have already started.

I'm not too worried

I still have 25 minutes

And am still on 'small' meals

At least until Monday

When my physical stability

Will be fully reassessed.

At 8am I take my cup of tea

Back to my room

Snuggle up on my chair

Under my blue polar fleece

And read the daily scriptures.

Then it's time to shower,

Dress, pee in the pan (I accidentally spilt it last night)

Have my daily bloods, vital sign recordings and ECG...

And try to busy myself

To distract from the panic

Already rising up inside of me

Like a tsunami.