Prayer

Prayer

Hey God

I know you never left me

But I’m checking in -

Again

I'm awake

And already I'm frightened

At the inescapable dawning

Of a new day.

It seems I only just

Made it through the last one

And even then

I know I wouldn't have

If not for you.

I still feel bruised and battered

From yesterday's battles

Must I really do it

All over again?

I'm holding on with everything have got

But I don't really know

What for...

I feel blind,

Disconnected,

Detached;

Like the waves are so big

I can’t see the horizon

All I can do is make it over one

Before the next one looms before me.

God,

 Will it ever get better?

Each minute seems to last a lifetime

And I can never fully shake

The panic and fear

Creating tides and strong currents

deep inside me.

Please God

Help me.

Please fill me with more

Moments of peace

Like you gave me yesterday,

Please,

Let me feel you holding me

Wrapping me up

In the comfort and safety

Of your love,

I know you are

Bigger and real-er

Than anything

In this world

Or in my mind.

I offer myself,

All that I do,

The decisions I make,

Each moment of today

To you.

Amen.